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A horse walks into a bar...

...and orders a pint!

Ah, a horse after my own heart.

Be sure to watch the video - Pete is as entertaining as Peggy, though I can't understand a word he is saying!




This is an entry inspired by chronarchy .

I love books.  I love to read.  I love the smell of a bookstore.  I love the feel of books in my hands.  One of my favorite things to be doing is reading a good book.  Some people escape in drugs, alcohol, food, video games, sex, shopping; my escape is reading.  During the darkest times of my childhood, books gave me respite and solace.  They have done the same during my adult life.  There have been times in my adult life so far when I have disengaged from the world because it was too painful for me and during those times, I read, for hours and hours.  There are three female characters that helped me to rebuild myself and my life.  To an outside observer, it may have seemed I was "wasting" so much of my life reading instead of living.  But the reality is, the heroines in my favorite books enabled me to rebuild myself and my life so I could re-engage.

There are three characters from my favorite books that I love dearly and hold a most esteemed place of honor in my heart.  These characters are:

Ayla from Jean Auels Earth's Children series

Claire from Jane Gabaldon's Outlander series

Phedre from Jacqueline Carey's Kushiel's Legacy

Each character is like a best friend and has aided me immensely in the past 12 years.  Each character has helped me to own my strength and intelligence as a woman.  Ayla aided me in my mid-twenties, Claire in my late twenties and Phedre currently in my early thirties.  When I come to a hard decision or a painful experience, I ask "What advice would she give me? What would she do in this situation?". 

In their own way, each would give an answer that , in essence, would say:  "Be authentic.  Never compromise.  Expect the highest from those you love, and always give the same in return."


My Beautiful friend and trainer Tasha and Ayla getting ready to be groomed and saddled up to ride!  (dates on pics are wrong - all pics taken tonight 9/10/08)

Pics above show Ayla's new saddle and bridle.  I LOVE this new gear!  The saddle is much more comfortable for both Ayla and me and it allows for so much more leg communication than my Australian saddle.  It is a Stubben all purpose saddle so it is good for basic equation to dressage to hunter-jumper.  It is SO comforable without being restrictive for horse or rider.  I think it is much easier on Ayla's back as well.  Her new bridle is equally as fabulous.  The extra chin strap prevents Ayla from biting onto the bit and running off with me/Tasha.  She didn't used to do this often, but when she was in a paricularly pissy mood, she would do this and this can make for a dangerous situation as well irritate the rider.  The new bridle is also allowing for Tasha and I to work on getting Ayla to bend/tuck - she is coming along Beautifully! I am going to try and get some pics of her with a full tuck on - she is BEAUTIFUL when she is fully tucked and in an extended trott.  Ayla has a very strong, smooth left canter, but has been picking up the wrong lead consistently on her right side due to underdeveloped muscles on her this side.  But tonight I got her to pick up the right lead and stay in the canter for 5 full minutes! Of course I got two full bucks and a flying lead to start out with, but she did it!!!
Side note - don't know why, but lj won't let me post any of my journals to public since I changed a few of them to friends only - I don't know why this is, anyone know? 


I had a dream last night - it was a long dream.  The weird thing is, in the entire dream, I was petting llamas.  Two llamas,  to be exact.  They were lying on a picnic table and I was loving on them, talking to them.  That's it.  Anyone know anything about what llamas represent? I am perplexed.



"You laugh at your dream's absurdities, and at the same time you feel that in the fabric of those absurdities some thought is hidden, but a thought that is real, something belonging to your actual life, something that exists and has always existed in your heart."



Choose Something Like a Star -- Robert Frost

O Star (the fairest one in sight),
We grant your loftiness the right
To some obscurity of cloud --
It will not do to say of night,
Since dark is what brings out your light.
Some mystery becomes the proud.
But to be wholly taciturn
In your reserve is not allowed.

Say something to us we can learn
By heart and when alone repeat.
Say something! And it says "I burn."
But say with what degree of heat.
Talk Fahrenheit, talk Centigrade.
Use language we can comprehend.
Tell us what elements you blend.

It gives us strangely little aid,
But does tell something in the end.
And steadfast as Keats' Eremite,
Not even stooping from its sphere,
It asks a little of us here.
It asks of us a certain height,
So when at times the mob is swayed
To carry praise or blame too far,
We may choose something like a star
To stay our minds on and be staid.

My Dad

Last night my Dad had a massive MI.   He called the squad at 2 am and they took him to Riverside.  He coded in the ER, he was gone for 3 minutes, but they got him back.  He was taken immediately to the Cath lab and two stents were placed in a major coronary artery that was 100% blocked.  He is now in the ICU and I am headed back there now.  Words cannot express the emotions I have had over the past 10 hours.  I can hold my dad's hand and see him smile, that is all that matters to me in the world right now.

Who moi?

Of the many dreams I had last night, one sticks out in my head.  It was a "one liner" dream.   The entire dream consisted of someone (I don't know who, nor can I remember their face) saying to me "you are becoming neurotic". 

Ummmmmm, yea.................


August 8, 2008
Nourishing Your Ideas
Capricorn Daily Horoscope

"Your plans may be thwarted today, which might make it seem as if you are experiencing a creative block. Even though it could appear that your efforts are all for naught, perhaps you might reframe your thoughts about your creative energy. Instead of thinking in terms of being blocked, you can view your situation as the universe giving you a needed rest in which subconsciously you are nourishing all of your ideas so that they will grow into much more than you could have imagined. If today you can keep in mind that sometimes it is healthy for you to simply let go and release your need to have everything go your way, the change in your plans may actually lead you to discover even more innovative and imaginative ideas.

There are times when our minds need to rest in order to flourish. Although it is frustrating to feel that we are unable to get our ideas across or that whatever we want to do isn’t going our way, remembering that everything in life is a process gives us permission to let go of our need for perfection. Allowing ourselves to use this time to rejuvenate our minds will ultimately lead us to something we might not have thought of before—putting things on our back burner creates a rich and abundant stew of innovation. By releasing your notions of what should be today, you will discover that what will come will be beyond your wildest dreams."

That'll do, I think.